Hello Everyone,
There are many times when things are not going according to what we want. We feel like everything is vanished and getting out of bed becomes so difficult for us. After facing so many failures we give up. What are your thoughts? How to cope up with failure?
you are not alone,
I have been facing panic attacks for almost ten years, my first one was a nightmare. Public places used to be a nightmare. There were periods where everything was falling apart. Family, friends and girlfriends were trying hard to wake me up from time to time. Depression was close, very close. I became subchondral about my health, visited numerous hospitals, took so many medical examinations. Everything in my body was fine, numbers were excellent, but all these were temporary measures. There is no panacea my friend, when the mind is not ok, the body follows. I found it hard to sleep, hard to wake up, hard to motivate myself, hard to find something meaningful, something happy, what a nightmare, I was falling apart...
After all those years, Ι tried a psychologist and the cognitive approach. No pills, no drugs, just talking. I have lots of good friends, and I talk alot, but talking with a psychologist was something new. I tried new approaches, fought back, fought HARD, I found myself provoking panic attacks by going back to all those places that were hard to get, subway, bars, concerts, beaches etc etc. I was punching the knife! I also found the way to say NO to everything and everyone that made me unhappy. I found the way to ask MYSELF FIRST, before deciding my next step, big or not. I used to live a life full of tension without even knowing it, I tried the other side, I changed, calmed down. I was a perfectionist, had to be cause of my job (senior programmer). I am not a perfectionist anymore and I have no intention to please everyone, like I used to. And then, out of nowhere, a ray of sunlight, mornings where better from day to day, nights where calmer, job was not a priority anymore, I was.
It wasnt easy, it didnt just happen, it took time, it took effort, but I am back. No, its not perfect and it will never be, but it is far better and I am far happier.
I dont know any of you guys but its not that hard to communicate my problem, this community has lots of good folks from all around the globe..
So my friend Arushi, if you are going through hell, keep going, keep pushing, it is totally up to you.
You are not alone...
Nick